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| "Set your mind on things above, not on the things on the earth." Colossians 3:2
I kinda figured that I've been blogging less frequently, because instead of bothering about the magnitude of the frequency in which I blog, I engage myself in finding out what landa in vectors or k in the multiplier process refers to. J2's a mad rush. The history kids mentioned that Ms. Oon told them "In life, you only die once. This is the year." What we once used to cover in a month we now cover in a week, and that's not overstating anything. Missing out on one day's worth of lessons is missing out on who knows how many marks in your exams if you don't attempt the related questions. It's a wonder how we've survived the past four weeks without coffee.
Then I remember what Amanda told Sam Low about surviving JC life, "By God's grace."
Amazing how I felt so down during the first week of school realising how frail I am and how infinite God is and yet once I start doing better because of His strength, I allow myself to be disillusioned into thinking that I'm all of a sudden better at track - and that's when I fall again. How many times I feel like a senseless guinea pig who runs on the wheel knowing that it'll get him nowhere. When will I ever realise for good that I really can't live life on my own?
Bohemia, expression. It all seems so attractive and yet whenever I rely on those to get me through my darkest days, I find myself being like one of those flowers that shrink when you try to touch them. If you don't get my weird analogy here, it just means that they seem to make me feel worse.
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It's my last year in NJ. In our first prayer meeting Mel prayed that we'll remember that it's our last chance to reach out to our friends, and that didn't really bother me till my mum was telling me of how some 30+ year old teacher died due to haemorrhage; it's scary to know that if I procrastinate and don't grab the opportunity, who knows if I'll ever get that chance again. Who knows how I behave today will be the last chance I get to be a witness for Christ?
If you're wondering why I even put Colossians 3:2 up there, it's basically to remind me that in this world where people know that everything costs everything but value nothing, I should start looking beyond this world I'm merely a vapour in the wind in. | | |
| I'm not posting the lyrics because it's a nice song and everyone loves it, although both are true; I'm posting it as a reminder to myself that God is truly infinite and majestic! I really thank God that He's beginning to show me and really comprehend how minute I am but yet I have such a BIG God! The first verse of this song alone makes me gaze at Him in awe:
When I see the beauty of a sunset's glory
Amazing artistry across the evening sky
When I feel the mystery of a distant galaxy
It awes and humbles me to be loved
By a God so high
What can I do but thank You
What can I do but give my life to You
Hallelujah, hallelujah
What can I do but praise You
Everyday, make everything I do
A hallelujah, a hallelujah
When I hear the story of a God of mercy
Who shared humanity and suffered by our side
Of the cross they nailed You to, that could not hold You
Now You're making all things new by the power
Of Your risen life
What can I do but thank You
What can I do but give my life to You
Hallelujah, hallelujah
What can I do but praise You
Everyday, make everything I do
A hallelujah, a hallelujah | | |
| I'm really thankful that God's been exploding in my life the last two weeks! (Oh I think this template has some error that doesn't show capital letters, but I'm still typing in them because my God is the only God!(: I just pray that I'll be able to keep up doing QT and all and not taking my eyes off Him once school starts and the pressures of life start kicking in.
1. I want this year to be set apart for Him. That includes the way I treat people.
2. I want to do well for A levels.
3. I want to enjoy my final year in track and just do my best.
The thought of the Math consolidation test is kindu'v scary but it's good to know that besides being bigger than the bogey man (whoever that is), my God's also greater than Math! :P
On a totally different note, I'm really starting to appreciate my parents and my brother. | | |
| Ask me any time last week and I would have replied, "No, what's the point if I know I'm not going to fulfil it?". But as I was browsing through my old blog posts, all the way back to 2007, I found a post titled "The Duck" (see below) and it really got me out of the spiritual fix I was in earlier today, I realised the point about blogging is not just for other people to know what's going on in my life, but also that when I look back, I'll be able to find answers that I once knew and had forgotten. I'm not going to lock this blog any more because in a way Paul's blog helped me to realise that even technology can be a means of evangelism. I want my life and everything I do in it to be open to the world to see, I don't want my life to be like a secret afraid people will know. So I'm going to write my year-end reflection now, because I want to be able to look back when I read this next year and say, "Hey, I really overcame everything that came my way, even A's, because I led a life close to God."
This year's been, I'm pretty sure, the one in which I diverted most from God. I've done things that I'm not proud of, and what's worse is that I led a life that wasn't one He'd want me to live despite experiencing His goodness in it. I started too crazily saying yes to everything and ended up being sick for a really long time and having tonsillitis, blowing my chance at getting a decent position for Nationals. My walk then was pretty much up and down. Then came Transformation camp where I was pretty much touched by God so much more than I have in the last four years. It was during that camp where my flu only lasted four days (right now I've been having it for three weeks) because my eyes were so fixed on God and not the flu. I lost two weeks of my holiday as study time because I went for two church camps and yet I didn't fail a single thing for Common Tests because I trusted God for it. Yet after two months or so I let the flame die down, in ways beyond being too lazy to do quiet time, I deliberately walked away.
I really do enjoy company with DWL: they make me feel like I have something to go to school for, but I regret starting off with them the wrong way. I regret being on the side saying "Joan's really a saint" when that could have been said of me as well by being a living testimony for Christ. That being said, Mel's full-time worker at her church really said something meaningful during the sermon: everything I do is a spiritual act. I'm thankful for my friends, but I want the reason I go to school for being beyond having friends, I want me going to school and doing work and giving my 100 percent in everything a spiritual act. I want to be a testimony in my school, among my friends. Getting to talk to Sophia was just a wake-up call: at the end of 2010 I want to be able to look back knowing I did just that.
That's my only resolution for 2010 - that's my only resolution for life. | | |
| There was a little boy visitng his grandparents on their farm.
He was giving a slingshot to play with out in the woods.
He practised in the woods; but he could never hit his target.
Getting a little discouraged, he headed back for dinner.
As he was walking back, he saw his grandma's pet duck.
Just out of impulse, he let the slingshot fly, hit the duck square in the head and killed it. He was shocked and grieved.
In a panic, he hid the dead duck in a wood pile; only to see his sister watching!
Sally had seen it all, but she said nothing.
After lunch the next day, Grandma said, "Sally let's wash the dishes."
But Sally said, "Grandma, Johnny told me he wanted to help in the kitchen."
Then she whispered to him, "Remember the duck?"
So Johnny did the dishes.
Later that day, Grandpa asked if the children wanted to go fishing.
and Grandm said, "I'm sorry, but I need Sally to help make supper."
Sally just smiled and said, "Well, that's alright because Johnny told me he wanted to help."
She whispered to him again, "Remember the duck?"
So Sally went fishing and Johnny stayed to help.
After several days of Johnny doing both his chores and Sally's; he finally couldn't stand it anymore.
He came to Grandma and confessed that he had killed the duck.
Grandma knelt down, gave him a heart and said, "Sweetheart, I know."
"You see, I was standing at the window and saw the whole thing, but because I love you, I forgave you."
"I was just wondering how long Sally would make a slave out of you."
Whatever you have done wrong in the past, the devil will keep throwing at your face. What you need to know is God was standing at the window and He saw the whole thing. He's seen your whole life and has forgiven you; just seeing how long the devil would make a slave out of you.
The great thing about God is that when you ask for forgiveness,
He forgives you. | | |
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