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| I think I'm becoming really pigly.
I had dinner just slightly more than an hour ago, ate 5.5 Madeleines (0.5 dropped) from Delifrance 3 minutes ago AND I'M HUNGRY AGAIN.
13 MORE DAYS TO KFC. Heck Napfa, once nationals are over I'm gonna eat till I'm happyyyyyyyyyyy.
I CAN ALREADY TASTE IT. YUM YUM. | | |
| I haven't blogged here in ageeees.
It's been a rollercoaster ride this year and everything seems to be going by you just like that! I'm really beginning to understand that I have no choice but to rely on God's strength because struggling on my own just got me down with a sinus infection after my body couldn't take the stress. What related to me most was the word Ps Ban prayed over me and it was really a wakeup call that made me realise I've been so foolish trying so hard at everything on my own!
Today we had the half day track camp right after training, and when we did all the goal-setting pep-talk, many of the guys were kinda stressed since they're aiming for top4 this year. I thank God no one's putting any pressure on me, although mostly cause they are expecting points from Joel instead, but I'm not going to stress myself over nationals, because I'm going to hold on to what God promised through Ps Ban, so win, lose, it's not up to me to decide, so why tax myself! It's evident even during training - when I try to picture what Gabe wants me to do and fret over it, I jump badly. When I realise I can't do it on my own and just say a short prayer and go in faith since really, there's nothing to lose, I jump so much better! And here's the best part, after that good jump, if I think it's cause "I've improved" or whatever, I try doing it on my own again, I don't manage to! See how God works through little faith!
I pray this little faith will keep growing and not waver. I pray I won't be foolish again to think I can do it without Him.
They say J2's the year people die, I say J2's the year my God shines!(: | | |
| "Set your mind on things above, not on the things on the earth." Colossians 3:2
I kinda figured that I've been blogging less frequently, because instead of bothering about the magnitude of the frequency in which I blog, I engage myself in finding out what landa in vectors or k in the multiplier process refers to. J2's a mad rush. The history kids mentioned that Ms. Oon told them "In life, you only die once. This is the year." What we once used to cover in a month we now cover in a week, and that's not overstating anything. Missing out on one day's worth of lessons is missing out on who knows how many marks in your exams if you don't attempt the related questions. It's a wonder how we've survived the past four weeks without coffee.
Then I remember what Amanda told Sam Low about surviving JC life, "By God's grace."
Amazing how I felt so down during the first week of school realising how frail I am and how infinite God is and yet once I start doing better because of His strength, I allow myself to be disillusioned into thinking that I'm all of a sudden better at track - and that's when I fall again. How many times I feel like a senseless guinea pig who runs on the wheel knowing that it'll get him nowhere. When will I ever realise for good that I really can't live life on my own?
Bohemia, expression. It all seems so attractive and yet whenever I rely on those to get me through my darkest days, I find myself being like one of those flowers that shrink when you try to touch them. If you don't get my weird analogy here, it just means that they seem to make me feel worse.
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It's my last year in NJ. In our first prayer meeting Mel prayed that we'll remember that it's our last chance to reach out to our friends, and that didn't really bother me till my mum was telling me of how some 30+ year old teacher died due to haemorrhage; it's scary to know that if I procrastinate and don't grab the opportunity, who knows if I'll ever get that chance again. Who knows how I behave today will be the last chance I get to be a witness for Christ?
If you're wondering why I even put Colossians 3:2 up there, it's basically to remind me that in this world where people know that everything costs everything but value nothing, I should start looking beyond this world I'm merely a vapour in the wind in. | | |
| I'm not posting the lyrics because it's a nice song and everyone loves it, although both are true; I'm posting it as a reminder to myself that God is truly infinite and majestic! I really thank God that He's beginning to show me and really comprehend how minute I am but yet I have such a BIG God! The first verse of this song alone makes me gaze at Him in awe:
When I see the beauty of a sunset's glory
Amazing artistry across the evening sky
When I feel the mystery of a distant galaxy
It awes and humbles me to be loved
By a God so high
What can I do but thank You
What can I do but give my life to You
Hallelujah, hallelujah
What can I do but praise You
Everyday, make everything I do
A hallelujah, a hallelujah
When I hear the story of a God of mercy
Who shared humanity and suffered by our side
Of the cross they nailed You to, that could not hold You
Now You're making all things new by the power
Of Your risen life
What can I do but thank You
What can I do but give my life to You
Hallelujah, hallelujah
What can I do but praise You
Everyday, make everything I do
A hallelujah, a hallelujah | | |
| I'm really thankful that God's been exploding in my life the last two weeks! (Oh I think this template has some error that doesn't show capital letters, but I'm still typing in them because my God is the only God!(: I just pray that I'll be able to keep up doing QT and all and not taking my eyes off Him once school starts and the pressures of life start kicking in.
1. I want this year to be set apart for Him. That includes the way I treat people.
2. I want to do well for A levels.
3. I want to enjoy my final year in track and just do my best.
The thought of the Math consolidation test is kindu'v scary but it's good to know that besides being bigger than the bogey man (whoever that is), my God's also greater than Math! :P
On a totally different note, I'm really starting to appreciate my parents and my brother. | | |
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